Sometimes people imagine meditation is out of reach for them. In an already busy day, how and when will I find time to meditate? My good friend once said that meditation is as easy as brushing your teeth. Once you start doing it every day, it just feels natural to do it and feels kind of weird and uncomfortable if you stop for a while. I’ve found this to be true.
I had the fortune of loosing my job a few months after I started meditating. At the time, I didn’t think it was fortunate. I was pretty shocked. But not only did I learn the value of work in a new way, I also had a LOT of time to find regularity in my Heartfulness practice. For some time it was the only major pillar in my day. So I respect that I didn’t start my practice with the challenges of a 50-hour a week job and a family too feed, like some people learn to do.
During that period, I had a lot of space and time. That space and time became a clearing of a lot of anxious and sad existential feelings that I had harbored for some years prior. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I felt guilty going on a hike or to the beach because I wasn’t being “productive”. So I sat in front of my computer most of the day. But I didn’t have work and couldn’t bring myself to apply to a mediocre job. So I went on social media a lot and frittered away the day. Somehow that made sense in my millennially-oriented, pre-prefrontal cortexted mind. But, I was meditating. Every morning when I woke up, and every evening before I went to bed. And somehow it stuck.
And somehow, slowly, I began to feel better. I began to feel a new feeling of love and lightness and peace inside. It was a feeling I had known, however vaguely, for my whole lifetime was possible but yearned, in vain, to access. And it was becoming my reality. And so the meditation perpetuated itself. The effort was so minimal. I just decided to do it, and did it. I have never been a particularly disciplined person. But if something clicks, I don’t have to be disciplined. It becomes natural. It becomes a joyous part of my life.