Ordeals accepted cheerfully, going through the process, will bear spiritual fruits.
-Kamlesh D. Patel
For most of my life I grew up looking insatiably for answers to Life. In Sunday school, I asked the “million dollar questions,” and often got less than satisfactory responses. For most of us, the problems we face in life burn within us on some level until there is a sense of resolution. This inner turbulence can come out as a myriad of emotional responses from anger to impatience to depression. For me it mostly manifested as anxiety and existential sadness. Though a generally positive person, these imbalances took a toll on my inner world and relationships. I had a lot of unwinding to do.
When I started meditation, I caught a glimpse into the balance and possibility of inner stillness. Over the following years of a daily practice, I continue to find more grace and softness inside. Now those over-sensitivities have come to a beautiful equilibrium, where I find an unprecedented sense of satisfaction and contentment. I’m still (definitely) refining to become more gracious. But overall my approach to life has become smooth and trusting.